nuances of being

analyze and judge

it is so hard to be authentic and to be you. truly, it is. we have a tendency to hide ourselves, to bury ourselves in guises that make us more palatable, more acceptable by society when really, we are simply existing by being illusionary. because to step away from the mask is to be truly daring and brave - to risk unveiling ourselves to scathing criticism, analysis, critique, ridicule and most horrid of all, judgment. what is worse than someone denouncing your experience, your emotions, whatever that makes 'you' you? isn't it something that we all shrink away from? don't we all fear being rejected?

i suppose, as a writer and an artist, one must be used to or else quickly get used to criticism, ridicule and judgment. this isn't a world where my feelings matter more than anyone else's, but appear to matter less simply because i put them out there on a canvas, in writing, on paper.

am i asking for ridicule, for critique? not necessarily. but through the act of expressing myself, i invite an audience.. and in inviting an audience, i open myself up to judgment (though i do not think that i have necessarily invited it immediately by simply expressing myself...).

such is the paradoxical complexity and absurdity of this world.

Posted by unknown at 11/20/2007 05:01:00 PM